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mum wanted me to sign up for this water colour/meditation course with a really interesting man she wants me to get to know. i thought he must be interesting because he is a painter, singer, cook, monk all at the same time. may be he is confused like me.
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3 days drawing coconuts at โรงเรียนธรรมชาติบ้านริมน้ำ
coconuts can tell you a lot
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on the first day’s morning session we used pencils. my teacher wasn’t there when we were drawing. he just checked our finished work. through my coconut, he told me that i’m sensitive/an artist/very good.
in the afternoon he was overseeing us and so he see how i draw my coconut. i never give my coconut structure. my coconut is basically a result of patchworks of shadows/spots/lights on the coconut. this is a tiring way to work. easier to treat the whole coconut with ease. look at the whole coconuts, not just some spots
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i also like to smudge my coconut. and he told me do not smudge. i said i like it smooth. this is on the second day. he told me im stubborn/want to do things in my own ways assume things. he said i have so much potentials. but they are not being used. he said have idol quality/gonna be so coool. but not yet. because i do things to block my potential.
on the third day i though my coconut didn’t look so good, i was pissed off in front of the canvas haha. and he was like ‘see, see.. when you don’t get what you want you get pissed off’. he said the coconut was good its me who assumes things. he said i have everything วิริยะ, สมาธิ, ปัญญา, just missing one สติ hahahahah but dont worry its because ‘you’re a teenager!’
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on the last day i asked him what do i do to block my potential. he wouldn’t tell me. he said ‘you have my number, yes? you can call me’. and i went home.
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now i think i understand his vague (+ most economical) sentences.
how i deal with my coconuts is also how i deal with everything in life, working detail by detail. never see the big picture. i never knew that my world is so narrow.
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now i do
(thank you)
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photo courtesy of p'mod
